Tomorrow (October 4) is my spiritual birthday and it should be such a day of celebration and joy ... and it felt that way the day I was born again ... but I don't have that joy right now. I've grown so much and changed so much in the last year -- some huge things -- but every day feels like a testament to how much I have to learn.
God has proven so faithful to me in the past year. Lately my Christian walk just feels too difficult. Everything about it is hard and God keeps calling me to difficult things. Just once I wish He would call me to something I am already prepared for. I can see so clearly He has worked hard to give me the right experiences to enable me to do hard things; it is still hard to trust that He knows me better than me.
It is when we are weak, that HE is strong. I bet if you think carefully about the heart of hearts prayers you have prayed, he is, in fact, answering those prayers. You want Him to be glorified... and He is! It's in our weakness that we can best be used for others to see His power in our lives. I believe that is where you are, right now. Tomorrow is a wonderful day of celebration. The angels are havin' a party!
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